If you take a look at your life five or six years ago, you'll see that things have changed even if not drastically. There are things that you used to enjoy that you no longer care about or that you can't find time to do. Whenever you remember them, you just smile and reminisce. It's amazing how time changes things. One minute you're fully immersed in a place, a feeling or even a person the next you struggle to even remember them or how they made you feel.
I have come to realize that growing apart is a painful part of growing up that almost everyone experiences. Despite how sad it is, life goes on. It's like life is the most resilient thing ever, it just goes on without care. You could lose your whole world in the blink of an eye and the sun will still set, rain will still fall, your stomach will still rumble when you're hungry. The only thing that suffers most is your heart. It gets hit so many times but still, like life it also goes on.
I think one of the saddest things is growing apart from someone who you were close to. Personally, being a reclusive and introverted person I rarely open up to people but when I do, it's honest and pure. Losing a connection so rare is truly a loss. It feels surreal at first and then it sinks in like medication injected in to the blood stream, before you can even process it, the whole connection dies out. It leaves you wandering like a lost traveller.
It's only natural to want to try right? So you - If you're one of the resilient ones - you'd try to regain it, re-establishing it bit by bit. Sometimes this works, it restores the charm but other times the connection blurs away with time leaving behind memories. It's as if we're all far too absorbed in trying to survive that there's just no room for them anymore. We say goodbye without even saying goodbye.
We move on as if they never meant a thing to us most times never finding a worthy replacement. Have you noticed that some of your best friends are from years ago? It's as if we lose the ability to form genuine connections as we grow older or that the woes of adulthood change us so much that we don't know purity anymore.
Sometimes I go looking for the genuineness in children's eyes. They are truly the purest of us. Irrespective of the warmth I feel when I watch them, my heart mourns for them. Who knows what surprises await them in growth? I wish I could take that eagerness they feel to grow because I had it too. Haha, now I just wish time would slow down, that the ageing process will freeze for a while and just let me be but of course those are just dreams.
In reality, I just try to live in the moment. This thing call youthfulness, we all should try to make good use of it because with all things, time snatches it away fast. Then you'll be left with nostalgia and smoothening wrinkles. Live life to the fullest my loves!
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