Hello guys, It has been forever! Life had been... well you know how 2020 has dealt with us all right? I hope you have been well and staying safe. This year has put us all through some tough times, hopefully we'll emerge stronger and healthier.
I did my POP(passing out parade) in March. It feels like March happened two years ago. I've heard different stories about 'labour market' so I wasn't expecting anything. My brother - after his service year - said it felt like he'd been dismissed from work🤣
On my part, I anticipated the POP because I'd become fed up with the whole thing. NYSC is demanding and annoying when you're not a 'ghost corper'. It has its moments, really, but my overall experience with CDS and monthly clearance was nasty and stressful. My PPA(place of primary assignment) wasn't helping much either. It got really tiring in those final days especially how I had to work for several hours (that's gist for another day), it was mentally draining. Don't let that last line deceive you, I had the time of my life in my PPA but you know how tiring things can get especially when they're about to be over.
Life post NYSC - I had plans, things to keep me busy while I continue the bumpy journey of finding myself. My plans got slammed in my face once again (Yeah, this has happened one too many times!) because they did not include a pandemic. A global pandemic that I had never imagined happened - is still happening - causing everything to pause. My 'plans' seemed so insignificant compared to all that was happening. Frankly, I did not know that I would still be alive to this date. It felt like the end, it still feels like it.
Since my 'plans' have been put on hold indefinitely. I was stuck home with the familiar and relatable fear of the COVID-19. Oh and let's not forget the imaginary symptoms. I cannot count the number of times I had sore throat, then I started to obsess over the figures which worsened my anxiety. It got so bad I had to stay away from all news COVID-19 related for sometime. It helped ease my anxiety a lot.
It's been hard to find my bearing despite how hard I try. It's so easy for the distractions to take over. I have been using the time to explore other interests. Also, I have learned to care for my hair. I have always wanted long and healthy hair but I pay little or no attention to it. I think it's been about three months since I started taking better care of my hair. It hasn't gone how I expected but it's teaching me patience 🤭 Guess what? I got careless and left a treatment in for too long!
Let's just say I don't just have to worry about increasing the length, regrowth has come in to the equation. Interestingly enough, I don't feel discouraged despite being pained. I find it surprising, still it hurts though😢 The raw truth is that to achieve anything in life, you just have to keep trying.
Also, I've been working on becoming a better and more consistent content creator. It's hard, yet I can't seem to give it up. I guess I will continue working on that and overcoming my camera shyness before I launch my Youtube career... Lol! Whenever you see me there just know that I have arrived! I literally do not know how people comfortably record themselves in public. Anyway I'll take that as a challenge.
Earlier this year, I mentioned trying to gain healthy weight. So, that has also been part of what has kept me busy. I've been researching ways achieve that. My diet contains soy milk, soy milk and soy milk. Don't freak out, I'm not over doing it! We have avocado, dates, carrots, peanut butter, fenugreek and I recently included beetroot. Has it been fast transformation? Nope. It has been a gradual process, it's a whole lot of work and sometimes I just want to quit. Then, I remind myself how I came to this decision on my own and that it's for myself. After months of trying, I now don't fit into most of my clothes. Oh and guess what? Belly fat!! My belly is a bit thicker and I've been freaking out, so I resorted to doing planks🤭. It is amusing as it is annoying but I'm loving the journey.
Now, let's get to the bitter truth. Life after NYSC is hard! There are three slaps awaiting you🤭. This is Nigeria, it's very rare to land a job as soon as you finish service. You'll burn that last 67,800 K faster than you can imagine, then reality will hit you. Lol. It's not funny though. If you've got a job, a hustle or something else doing to earn you money, you may not know anything about those slaps. I won't chastise you if you don't have something doing. I know 'hustle o!' is easier said than done but then if you can, it's a great way to keep yourself occupied before you can put your certificate to use. Even after getting a job, a side hustle really isn't a bad idea, that is if you can. I am no entrepreneur but I know it is hard! You'll want to quit most times but always remind yourself why you started. Let that be your motivation.
Take life day by day, a step at a time. You'll get there as long as you stay on track. I cannot wait to come back and pour out my heart to you again...
xx
